So I took some time away from responsibilities this weekend and I came to the conclusion that I am not happy. And that’s okay. It is better to be aware that you are unhappy then to try and shove down inside of you so you never have to worry about it.
I am not happy with my day money (is what I call a day job). And it’s not that I don’t think day jobs are for me, I just can’t do this one.
Reasons why I can’t do this day money:
- Micromanaging boss
- Having to give up nights and weekends for it
- Be constantly talked down to and told I’m doing everything wrong before I even get a chance to try
- There is more work than 2 people can do
- The unorganization is astounding
- Instead of the word “um” he uses “you know?” and it doesn’t seem like a lot but consistently being asked if I know what he’s talking about 12 times in one sentence is very frustrating
I need something that will allow me to do my job well and not constantly feel like a burden and like I don’t know what’s going on because, right now, I just have no idea what is going on and I can’t keep working like this.
But it’s nice to know that I have figured that out and a, taking steps to correct the problem. And I always have a bad time giving people bad news so I am not looking forward to letting him know that I am going to be leaving. I don’t like making people sad and I am terrible at confrontation but if I am unhappy I have to think of me first because, at the end of the day, I am stuck with myself and am the most important person in my life.